2010

Happy 2010! I haven't done an update here for a long time so I will catch up.

The grandbaby is a boy and they are going to name him Dylan James. I'm so excited I can't stand it!

Christmas was quiet for us. I got a Wii! So excited about that.

I'm getting an assistant for my classroom. I am thrilled about this!

I can go to the bathroom when I need to! (That is a big deal, believe me!)

I have lost 8lbs since the middle of December. Trying to get the blood sugar under control and lose enough weight to not become diabetic. Exercise hasn't really happened yet because it keeps snowing and I don't belong to a gym. Looks like that will be next on the agenda. Someplace where I can walk at least until the weather gets better in the spring!

One or two more haircuts and I will be completely gray. Looks like it will be a dark gray, except around the temples which are white. I am looking for some safe hair colors now. Not ready for gray yet, but so tired of being a brunette!

Looked all over the place for jeans that fit me NOW but no luck. Perhaps when I get down 15 lbs, I can fit into my old jeans. That will be a good thing.

Looking for a better attitude about myself and dressing/looking better.

Setting goals and being positive about change for 2010.

Have a great year!! 2010 brings HOPE.....

I've been thinking....a rant of sorts and thinning hair

I was observing going out to dinner the other night that people have dinner together, but don't have much to do with each other. Why? The CELL PHONE. There are tables of 2, 3, or more people and over half of them are either talking to someone or texting someone. GRRRRR That really makes me mad. When I go out to dinner with someone, I want to make conversation with them, not wait until they have finished a convo with someone else. Of course, there are exceptions to this rule: waiting to hear of the birth of a grandchild, being on call (dr, lawyer, or someone who needs to deal with something in an emergency situation), waiting to hear of someone's condition at the hospital/hospice or home (gravely ill someone) or waiting to hear if some company coming are delayed in flight or on the road. Nothing else. Have a little respect for the people you are with!! I rarely take my cell with me out to dinner or movie or anywhere where I am going to be with someone else. And if I have it with me, it is in the OFF position. Have a little consideration!! It just irritates me!! Rant off!

The last couple of days I've been having a silent pity party. Why? Because of the situation with my hair. I had a blood test on Wednesday for a laundry list of hormone imbalances that may be the culprit of my hair thinning aka alopecia.

I have always had fine hair, but lots of it. In the last couple of years or so, I had noticed that if I put my hair up in a ponytail or pulled it back, my scalp was very visible. I blamed it on second day hair (you know the day before you need to wash it). So I didn't think much about it. One day at practice, of the dancers mentioned my thinning hair. I was angry. I didn't have thinning hair!! I didn't think about it, so I blew it off. Cut to late September, when I went to my primary care doctor and the first thing he said to me was "Your hair is thinning." I had a sinus infection, what did that have to do with thinning hair? Second day hair....okay. So I had to go back to him and he said it again. After I left, I started freaking out. I'm losing my hair!! So my next hair appt, I had my hair cut really short and started wearing it in my natural state (curly). Which leads me to my pity party. Everywhere I look, there are women with thick luxurious hair and my barely there anymore. I hate this. So either I am thinning because of genetics (thanks mom and dad) or medical type reasons. So until this issue is resolved, my hair is short, curly, and I'm going gray. Scarves and hats will be my friends. But one way or another, I will know what's causing it to happen....and maybe I can accept this instead of feeling like I'm in mourning for my hair.

Catching up rambling

I never intended to slack off on blog writing, but I did. Life got in the way and I've had some health issues so I am here now to tell everyone who reads this that I'm back.

I'm still grieving over my kitty. That is still so hard. November is hard because both of my parents died in November. 20 years for my dad and 2 for my mom. Some days I still struggle, but I try to go on the best I can. Thought I was having a heart attack this week. My new med is making me feel this way. I'm waiting to hear from the doctor.

Broken spirit..... I didn't really realize this until something brought it to my attention. It is not good to put all of your faith in someone and they turn out not to be what they present themselves to be and they hurtful to many and generally very negative. I'm feeling bad because I believed so much and now, I have to slowly build myself back up to get my "Mojo" back. I've got to figure out how to build myself back up. So I am in that process. I really should not feel that a person has that much power over me that they can do this. I'll get it back.

Time to simplify my life. I've been working on it and it is one step forward and two back. Not exactly fun....but I'm still moving forward even when I move backward.

So there it is, it's all out there. Now it's time to go back to life and do what I need to do.

I'll be blogging more now. Thanks for reading my ramblings!

I haven't posted in a while catching up

Wow! I haven't posted in awhile. Not since I cut my hair real short (for me) and I love it btw. I'm kind of in my fall funk. I had been sick for nearly a month (no flu, just the yucks--sinus infection, etc.) and I'm better now, but I just don't want to do a whole lot of anything. I just want to stay in and well, stay in. I'm sure I'll come out of it. I have had trouble with fall because I am thinking about both of my parents dying in the month of November and yesterday was the day two years ago when my mom had her stroke. Thus, the funk. I do feel, however, that I am coming out of the general grief and malaise that I've had and I don't really think about things too much anymore. There was a time when that is all that I thought about and I kept myself in the stage of sadness and grief. I am just having a difficult time making myself do things. So yesterday, I made myself do something, thanks to my friends that are encouraging me to do things with them......so I went to a Mary Kay makeover thing they had with this Saturday group they belong to. Had pictures made too. I'm supposed to get them tomorrow in the email. I thought they looked pretty darn good, too! So new pictures of my new hair soon!

I'll soon be back with some new stories and my progress in getting back into life.

I cut my hair!

Last Saturday, I cut my hair. I mean cut it really short. I still have enough hair to cover my scalp, but it is short. I haven't had hair this short probably since 5th grade, maybe? So anyway, I did it. Trying to get my hair healthy. No color, no blow drying, no flatironing, no combs or brushes, barrettes or bobby pins. Just my hands. Scalp massage, good vitamins. Then I will regroup and see what to do with it after it's a bit more healthy. Kind of liberating, actually! Pictures to come!

RIP Feisty

Today, my cat Feisty crossed over this morning after 19.5 years of life in cat years. We are so sad.....she was so sweet and loving. Never has there been a cat in my life that was so loving. She was so soft and fuzzy. Loved everyone....not scared of anything. She caught a few mice in her day.....one two weeks ago. She was amazing! Such good company! We are missing her terribly today and always. I loved her so much....I miss my little baby kitty!

Confession time: Looking around my house, what do I need to do?

I think there may be something to looking at the clutter in your house and having it reflect upon your life. My house is cluttered. Not as bad as those home improvement shows, but bad enough. I am ashamed, saddened and disappointed in myself AND completely unmotivated to do something about it. There is only one room relatively free of clutter and it's my living room. And I don't like it. I need help getting it back in order. I can't do it myself because it overwhelms me. I don't know when I'm going to do it or where I'm going to get the help, but I don't want it like this anymore! I'm a pack rat. Dyed in the wool, to the core pack rat. So was my mom, so is my husband. Everyone's stuff is here at my house. I said it, it's out there and I'm going to contemplate it for awhile and figure out what I'm going to do next. I know I'm going to do something about it!